4.20.2008
2n + 1
sometimes, i'm just tired of it.
most of the time, despite its importance to me, i'm pretty good at not letting it define who i am.
i have good things in my life and i have been very fortunate. but even despite those things, i find that there is more that i want. it can't be that hard to find - most of my friends have found it and i'm just in one of those ruts when it seems to be larger than life.
it is: 2n+1. not the equation, but what it represents. i am the +1 part of the equation. the 2n have been great to let me tag along, feel like i'm not the nth wheel, but let's face it, at some point, the 2n leave and there's just the +1.
it is a lonesome place to be.
when you have a good job and can't even afford a trailer home to live in (really, folks, a damn trailer home in santa cruz isn't affordable) then the good things seem to fade and the things like it loom larger.
easy solution: move. find a better paying job. get a nice home. have a big yard for lots of dogs. okay, so it's not that easy of a solution to do all of those things, but even with them, there's still it.
most of the time, despite its importance to me, i'm pretty good at not letting it define who i am.
i have good things in my life and i have been very fortunate. but even despite those things, i find that there is more that i want. it can't be that hard to find - most of my friends have found it and i'm just in one of those ruts when it seems to be larger than life.
it is: 2n+1. not the equation, but what it represents. i am the +1 part of the equation. the 2n have been great to let me tag along, feel like i'm not the nth wheel, but let's face it, at some point, the 2n leave and there's just the +1.
it is a lonesome place to be.
when you have a good job and can't even afford a trailer home to live in (really, folks, a damn trailer home in santa cruz isn't affordable) then the good things seem to fade and the things like it loom larger.
easy solution: move. find a better paying job. get a nice home. have a big yard for lots of dogs. okay, so it's not that easy of a solution to do all of those things, but even with them, there's still it.
# posted by cheddah : 7:36 PM
