whaaa happened?

played in the green pickup tonight, which turned out to be more of a green/red pickup. which is fine by me - it was a good time. well, at least it should have been. last ice slot of the season for green, so i was looking forward to making the most of it.

but, i talked to my brother during my entire drive from Monterey to Belmont, and he's going through a rough time right now. and when you love your brother as much as i do, it just hurts so much to see him unhappy and confused. we have always been super close, and at times share a bond that i think twins often share. i actually feel his hurt right now and wish i could take it all on so that he won't have to feel any of it. unfortunately, life doesn't work that way, so all i can do is be supportive and let him know that whatever happens, i'm in his corner.

so, that being, said, my bro was on my mind while i was supposed to be skating around, having fun with my friends. i was so out of it tonight and i apologize to everyone who was out there. if i wasn't smiling, it's not because i don't like you! i normally like to talk with the other team's players, mess around, etc. but just wasn't up to it tonight. i think this is the first time i've cried right before entering the rink and right after leaving it.

hopefully the issues he's dealing with will be resolved soon, and though my brother may have some tougher times ahead, i hope he knows that i'll always be there for him.