whaaa happened?

saw my former housemate JP and his girlfriend for dinner tonight. made me realize even more how much i miss hanging out with him. i had it SO GOOD for 4 years in my old house. now Todd, Amy, and Ollie are down south and even though John is still in town, i hardly see him.

i know i'm very sentimental about a lot of things but this one is deserving of all my mushiness and yes, even tears. they will be my friends for the rest of my life, and i'll be in contact with them semi-regularly. but at this moment in time, they're moving on with their lives while i'm just looking to go back to what once was. JP and Diane are getting along great, Todd and Amy are getting married, and i'm just me, being happy for them but wanting happiness for me. selfish? sure. jealous of what they have? you bet.

but mostly what i want is my housemates back. it ain't gonna happen and i need to realize that it probably won't ever be that good again. sounds trite, but at least i have the memories of the good times we did have together. and there were a lot of them.